ADDICTION AND POTEN.

This is my favorite picture and shot.. -.~

I can do anything with this picture.. :D using PICNIK.COM

here's some shot of it ^.^                                                                                                                          

this is actually my profile picture right now.. :I 

it was taken at grand royale subdivision using digital camera of canon.

editing picture is not making my self and face different... I'm editing just to show that I can be versatile in making my self looking different.... :D

Editing my pictures or other persons picture was somehow good... and it is totally outrageous when your at it and the results are good.. it's just,, :)making me feel especial in a way.. =D

see?? the transformation is good(is it??)*laugh*.. i'd like to share you the steps how to make your picture to look like this.. but.. sorry to disappoint you,, I can't remember the whole editing stuff I did. for the reason that I lili-lili like this picture that i even made me revise it for so many times.. 

 I'm addict, to it of course. It made me feel sad thinking that I couldn't be able to share the ways on how it transform to another type :(

 I hope your enjoying the conseuences I putted and the effects. It's only in picnik.com

I really love and I think I can do better if someone will allow me to. :D 

Can you hand me a job :D ehe :D

"when the day is said and done in the middle of the night and your fast asleep my love" well :D it was the lyrics of as song playing  in my media while I'm thinking what to write next(laugh)... ahaha!. STATUE by lil eddie.. a beautiful song. but. lets get down to the chuk-chak business ^.^

this is the last example. but I can do more, than what I posted here to this picture using picnik.

did anyone know how to install adobe premiere? We in fact install it for so 3 times, but it always registered like "redundancy occurred" 

waht to do?? ampf!!

you can try editing this picture in picnik dat com and feel the rush of being talented.. hehe :DD

an antonym of nod(part 2)

-standing  at the bottom of his bed, watching the doctor and nurses panicking and doing everything to save my Tito's life is some kinda unwell and extraordinary. CPR-CPR and all i can do is, stare, stare....stare......and stare.... i took a look at the heart beat monitor, "______________________________________________" it registered similar to this one. it's odd to, because, in my 17 years of living, that line is only appearing on my watched drama movie. haha :( but it's really altered from I what thought it would be.

But as far as I remember, during giving CPR to my uncle, they placed a hose in his mouth(down to his esophagus, of course).  And there was a blood flowing out of his body then through the hose down to a big bottle, I think they were removing the water that my uncle didn't exerted every time he pee.. Because, when he pee, no liquid was coming out of his organ. They were saying "ayan oh, ang daming tubig, eto yung mga di nya nalabas,  kaya pla bloated stomach ng patient doc."

I was like X_X

(blank eyes and mind)

BUT IT TOTALLY ANNOYED ME, before they took my uncle's corpse.It took, 25 minutes and they didn't even put a clothe to cover my uncle, imagine? on the ward???? it's a sh*t scene for me!.
So me and my Tita decided to went to the nurses station, but they ignored us and told that "ok na po, may kinuha lang pu sa baba yung mag dadala sa kapatid nyu sa morge, hintay nalang po"
 SHE sounded sarcastic, and it totally hit my temper, so I make a face and turned away, I heard them continuing the conversation but it changes to a subject about notice, about the schedule when to obtain the death certificate of my uncle.


When I got back to the ward, my cousin kuya bronz was wiping his tears, and asked me a few question about, - - - - - -  ? ? ? ? ? ?...... I don't remember now. but I think it's about what to do?,, :|


Few moment passed, and here came the "man" to get my uncle's remains. They were 2, but as they come in, they were laughing, its like, they were to apathetic about those kind of situation. It pisses me off. so I shouted. "what is fu*king funny!" so they sealed there mouth (for God's sake!) wu!!

I walked out of the ward and fixed with my grand mother(lola aida), with my cousin(j.b.). 'Cause I can take the manners of those people.And after that, one nurse shouted to my uncle's body, "ba bye!" without becoming aware of our presence outside the ward, she sounded "ba bye! buti nga!!". hm!!! (angry)

Me, my lola and  my cousin j.b. , certain to go home, and as we came in the house, all of them was in teared ayes, particularly my cousin kuya mack, they told me that he actually hit our wood wall with his fist containing a word "bakit hindi mo ko hinintay papa!"

Because, as far as i know, this is the second time when my cousin (kuya mack) was left by his loved one with burden and hard feelings. :( The thought of it was actually dig my hard feelings that I build at hospital , and brought me to crying. 

I'm getting emotional here. wiw (wiping tears)

It took 8 hours before the funeral came in our house at san jose del monte bulacan.

ALL I CAN DO IS SHOOK MY HEAD EVERY TIME I REMEMBER THAT SCENE AND EXPERIENCE. In point of fact, it is totally an antonym of nod. ;'}

Rest in peace my uncle, I hope you and your father (my grand father at the same time) are now together and with God. ;}}

an antonym of nod

reality is far different from what you imagined or what you thought it would be, right?

being in the scene,it's like, you know that they can save his life. but at the end of the hour. they didn't.

my 'cousin, "kuya bronz(son of my uncle that died)" ask me to go with him to buy some 10 cm na tubo.. but we didn't found any, so we decided to went back in the hospital. We were both on  shock as we enter the ward, all the attention of the patients and their keepers are in direction of my uncles bed, we run to it, and that's the moment the doctor and nurses started to save his life, non stop CPR  occurred. non stop tears fell from their eyes, non stop voice containing the name of my dying uncle.

but earlier that day, only me and 'couz "kuya bronz" were there, my plan was to bring some him some breakfast and after it was to go at san jose del monte bulacan, but the 2nd part of the plan was not granted, because as you enter the ward and saw my uncle, all you could feel was wretched, to cover my feelings, I laugh while spitting stories to my 'couz, BECAUSE I don't want to be a naive, of course, there's DR. Ramos, it's  strange because above all the other patience that he talked to, lot of his time was spent on my uncle, a large time indeed. many questions was asked, he actually) scolded my cousin because the fact that he doesn't know what my uncle(his father) was doing in his time of living

-standing  at the bottom of his bed, watching the doctor and nurses panicking and doing everything to save my Tito's life is some kinda unwell and extraordinary. CPR,-CPR and all i can do is, stare, stare....stare and stare.... i took a look at the heart beat monitor, "______________________________________________" it registered similar to this one. it's odd to, because, in my 17 years of living, that line only appeared on my watched drama movie. haha :( but it's really altered from I thought it would be,

(to be continued)